On Tuesday I’ll be traveling to Honduras. Last night as my friend prayed over the team she said, “Thank you, Lord, for inviting ordinary, broken people into your story.”
Still, the Creator of the universe has invited me into this part of His story. There’s really no better way to empty yourself and refill with Him than to realize that the Lord of all is sending ordinary, broken you to Honduras as His hands and feet.
Last week, I didn’t know I was going on the trip. I met a friend for lunch and over a Panera Thai Chicken Salad, we talked needs and airline tickets. I felt as if I’d been punched in the gut. God was sending me – clearly – and I hadn’t helped Him one bit.
See, I like to “help” God. Surrender doesn’t come easy for me. But, on my Emmaus Walk I learned complete and total surrender to God’s will and His WAYS, especially when His ways aren’t mine.
Then Jesus told his disciples, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what shall a man give in return for his soul? For the Son of Man is going to come with his angels in the glory of his Father, and then he will repay each person according to what he has done.
When you’re truly surrendered to Him, willing to follow Him wherever he takes you, willing to take up your cross daily, willing to lose your life for the sake of Christ to find your life, you think less and less about your plans and wishes. Instead, you’re consumed by Him, His promises, His plans, and His ways.
Through my surrender, God showed me He always knows best by providing me with an oppotunity to do what He created me to love most: Talking to people, engaging with their stories, and sharing those stories through writing – in a country whose people stole my heart in 2007.
He knew all along this is how it would be.
When I embarked on this 31-day Less Me, More Jesus journey, I never in my wildest dreams considered I’d be in Honduras by October’s end.
But, here I go. An ordinary, broken person, praying God uses me. And, as my friend, Jen, says, “if it smacks of me or pride, get rid of it, God.”
What in your life smacks of pride? Smacks of self? Have you fully surrendered all areas of your life to Him? Is there a part that you like to hold on to? Do you feel you know best how to navigate certain areas of your life?
Give them over to Him today. (And, again tomorrow…and again the next day…see the pattern?:) He has a plan greater than yours. While it might include suffering and brokenness (actually, it probably will), He knows what he’s doing. He knit you in your mom’s womb.
He knows what’s best. I am just kinda sad I waited so long to trust Him completely. I hope you won’t wait.