In 2009 Alece Ronzino, created One Word 365. The goal was and is to forget the new year’s resolutions and focus on One Word. I began choosing “one word” a few years ago; my words have included hope and abide. And this year: wonder.
After praying and begging God for a word (for almost three months!), I found my word tucked in a paragraph in Common Prayer: May the peace of the Lord Christ go with you: wherever He may send you; may he guide you through the wilderness: protect you through the storm; may he bring you home rejoicing: at the wonders he has shown you; may he bring you home rejoicing: once again into our door.
After a few difficult years I felt ready for WONDER. Doesn’t that word seem exciting? It means…a feeling of surprise mingled with admiration, caused by something beautiful, unexpected, unfamiliar, or inexplicable; to feel admiration and amazement; marvel; rapt attention or astonishment at something awesomely mysterious or new to one’s experience; a feeling of doubt or uncertainty. EXCITING!
I looked forward to a year of admiration and amazement. Little did I know that God was beginning with the last definition: a feeling of doubt or uncertainty. Boo. As the year progressed I began to doubt. Doubt God, doubt church. Doubt who I am. Doubt if I really knew and loved Jesus or if I just desired to be good.
I began picking apart and analyzing every single area of my faith. It wasn’t all “wonder” and “amazement” – at all. There was ick and bad theology – unforgiveness and selfishness – misplaced motives and bitter roots. I actually stood in “wonder” of what I found (guess I’d been a bit delusional). I’d been wrapped up in religion so long that I was unaware of how I listened so much to others and so little to my Father. My faith had become so rigid and ruling that I had missed…. the wonder.
Isn’t it awesome how He works? He began with wonder and led me to wonder.
At the wonders He has shown you...I began noticing ordinary things more and more. The holding of a Daddy’s hand. The sunset over the river. The twins in front of me at a football game. The way my son’s brain works. The grace of my daughter. The loyalty of a friend. Wonder everywhere…Jesus everywhere.
All obvious and available as soon as I took the first step toward wonder and chose to look outside of me.
I just read that God created our brains to engage on the right then left. We engage our creative and wonder side then our logical side…until we are educated not to. That is, until we are culturally conditioned to be logical first.
I’d lost my wonder. I’d thrown out my “right brain” in favor of the left brain – in favor of safe and “wise.” I’d forgotten the amazing of Jesus, of Creation, of Father God and His Holy Spirit.
God caused me to wonder, so I’d seek. Seek so I’d find Him. Find Him so I’d stand in wonder and amazement.
On this journey to knowing Jesus and delighting in Him – and Him alone – I am overwhelmed with wonder, and I pray you are too. My life’s song has become…
May we never lose our wonder
Wide eyed and mystified
May we be just like a child
Staring at the beauty of our King
Fill us with wonder…
Cause you are beautiful in all your ways
King of Kings
You are beautiful in all your ways
Just close your eyes, you’ll see him
Open the eyes of our heart to see you God
May we never lose our wonder…
We give our lives to sing
Cause you are beautiful in all your ways
You fascinate us with who you are
You fascinate us with your love
You are beautiful
You are glorious
Yes you are…
May we never lose our wonder (from Bethel Music)
I read these words – I sing these words back to my Creator – and I know that I want a heart that beats to know Jesus. More and more and more. Not to keep rules or have right behavior. Not to serve out of obligation. Not to love because He says so, but because it flows naturally from my love for Him.
To live in wonder and to stand in awe. To live with a desire for more and more Jesus – loving Him and all His people.
Friends, today I pray you live in wonder – that you stand in admiration, amazement, and astonishment when you think of Jesus and the cross. When you consider what He did for you at Calvary and how He continues to seek you – to pull you closer and closer to Him. Throughout scripture we see God wanting to dwell with his people – with YOU and IN you. How could we not marvel at a Creator whose love never fails, who never gives up on us, who died and took our sin and shame and condemnation?
Wide-eyed and mystified, may we be just like a child staring at the beauty of King Jesus, giving our LIVES to sing His praise with fascination. Lord, open our hearts to see you today.