Often when someone asks, “How are you?” she’s not looking for the paragraph answer. More the sentence answer. So, I mostly respond with, “I am good, how are you?”
Not this friend.
She asks “how are you doing?” and genuinely wants to know. So, I give the paragraph answer – the good, the bad, and the ugly. Of all the things I shared, she chooses one detail and asks me why my heart isn’t in that.
I am honest: That’s a good question. (Because I have not even stopped to think why my heart isn’t in it!)
Her response? I see the light that you are and I am thankful that you are there bringing Jesus.
Well, she sees Jesus, and I see drudgery. Interesting.
Then, she shares her life in a very honest way. And of one part of her world she says, “I know that God provides and moves no matter the place, but I do believe that this is obedience for us right now and that we will see the blessing in it. But schedule wise, I am full up and so I am looking for how God wants me to live in rest, health, and margin.”
This is the moment I look over my shoulder – CERTAIN that Jesus is right there. My schedule feels full up. I struggle with health, rest, and margin. And I feel this is Jesus saying through my friend: This is obedience for you right now, Sarah. You will see the blessing in it someday.
As we continue talking about a new season in her life, she says, “ Sometimes it takes me a bit to get on board when my schedule and comfort are involved.”
Ummmm…are you reading my journal? I even say to her: ME TOO! Perhaps that’s why my heart is not in one area of my life right now. I can’t get on board because it’s not comfortable and it keeps me from doing what I want to do. Ugh. That’s a hard reality.
How thankful I am to have such a wise, obedient friend who’s honesty about her journey builds my faith and helps me to understand Him and his ways better. And when I look back at how God connected us across many, many miles, I sit in wonder at His orchestration. At this gift. And at how Jesus showed up in a conversation today on Facebook Messenger, using my friend’s obedience and faith as an example to me. He really is in the small.
Thank you, Lord. (And, I love you, friend!)